Mental Stability???
For the past three months - ever since I had the really severe hypoglycemic episode while driving I have had a hard time with my mental stability. Every moderate and severe hypoglycemic reaction that I have affects me quite severely in the mental category. A lot of it is blame - what could I have done different, why didn't I feel any symptoms, and how come I have to have this stupid disease to begin with!.! None of which I change anyway...
It also seems peculiar to me that after 25 years of having diabetes I still wrestle with the acceptance of this disease and everything that I have to do to take care of it.. I always just shoved it aside until last month when I just couldn't take the depression anymore. At that time I went to see my family doctor who put me on a small dosage of Prozac and told me to try it and to come back in a month and see if it was working for me to help me feel better.. I went back a month later and it seemed to be helping some, but I also told him I would like to try and meet with a counselor to hopefully resolve some of my unresolved issues.. I had my first appointment with the counselor yesterday and we seemed to get the starting point issues figured out and I will see her again in about 10 days... I have always figured I was more of a failure for feeling lost, sad, depressed, and angry. I should just be able to deal with it and go on, right? Not so - as I was very close to literally throwing the towel in!! However, in the last couple of months I have found some very supportive friends over the internet and my family is very supportive of me and always willing to help me. I know I am not alone as I have found out from Scott through his blog - he voices a lot of the same thoughts and feelings that I feel concerning diabetes.
When we don't feel good about ourselves we quite obviously do not take very good of ourselves!! This I have found to be so true for me in the last couple of months - I have had a least one moderate to severe hypoglycemic reaction ever since the driving incident in April. Talk about adding guilt onto guilt - however, through my faith, fellowship of Christians and diabetic friends I am persevering and hope to be able to share much more with you in the upcoming months..
For the past three months - ever since I had the really severe hypoglycemic episode while driving I have had a hard time with my mental stability. Every moderate and severe hypoglycemic reaction that I have affects me quite severely in the mental category. A lot of it is blame - what could I have done different, why didn't I feel any symptoms, and how come I have to have this stupid disease to begin with!.! None of which I change anyway...
It also seems peculiar to me that after 25 years of having diabetes I still wrestle with the acceptance of this disease and everything that I have to do to take care of it.. I always just shoved it aside until last month when I just couldn't take the depression anymore. At that time I went to see my family doctor who put me on a small dosage of Prozac and told me to try it and to come back in a month and see if it was working for me to help me feel better.. I went back a month later and it seemed to be helping some, but I also told him I would like to try and meet with a counselor to hopefully resolve some of my unresolved issues.. I had my first appointment with the counselor yesterday and we seemed to get the starting point issues figured out and I will see her again in about 10 days... I have always figured I was more of a failure for feeling lost, sad, depressed, and angry. I should just be able to deal with it and go on, right? Not so - as I was very close to literally throwing the towel in!! However, in the last couple of months I have found some very supportive friends over the internet and my family is very supportive of me and always willing to help me. I know I am not alone as I have found out from Scott through his blog - he voices a lot of the same thoughts and feelings that I feel concerning diabetes.
When we don't feel good about ourselves we quite obviously do not take very good of ourselves!! This I have found to be so true for me in the last couple of months - I have had a least one moderate to severe hypoglycemic reaction ever since the driving incident in April. Talk about adding guilt onto guilt - however, through my faith, fellowship of Christians and diabetic friends I am persevering and hope to be able to share much more with you in the upcoming months..
posted by Dianne Kracht @ 12:55 PM
1 Comments:
At 7:47 AM,
Nic said…
Dear Dianne,
I'm so glad that you're taking steps to deal with your depression, and that you've found a good support network. Depression is so isolating because -- often -- it feels like our own fault. I spent 5 years thinking I couldn't be depressed because there was nothing wrong. I had a good life. But in reality, depression hits us all, and hits diabetics especially, probably because we are dealing with so much (as if normal life isn't enough!)
Three cheers for you!!!!
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