Mental Stability???
For the past three months - ever since I had the really severe hypoglycemic episode while driving I have had a hard time with my mental stability. Every moderate and severe hypoglycemic reaction that I have affects me quite severely in the mental category. A lot of it is blame - what could I have done different, why didn't I feel any symptoms, and how come I have to have this stupid disease to begin with!.! None of which I change anyway...
It also seems peculiar to me that after 25 years of having diabetes I still wrestle with the acceptance of this disease and everything that I have to do to take care of it.. I always just shoved it aside until last month when I just couldn't take the depression anymore. At that time I went to see my family doctor who put me on a small dosage of Prozac and told me to try it and to come back in a month and see if it was working for me to help me feel better.. I went back a month later and it seemed to be helping some, but I also told him I would like to try and meet with a counselor to hopefully resolve some of my unresolved issues.. I had my first appointment with the counselor yesterday and we seemed to get the starting point issues figured out and I will see her again in about 10 days... I have always figured I was more of a failure for feeling lost, sad, depressed, and angry. I should just be able to deal with it and go on, right? Not so - as I was very close to literally throwing the towel in!! However, in the last couple of months I have found some very supportive friends over the internet and my family is very supportive of me and always willing to help me. I know I am not alone as I have found out from Scott through his blog - he voices a lot of the same thoughts and feelings that I feel concerning diabetes.
When we don't feel good about ourselves we quite obviously do not take very good of ourselves!! This I have found to be so true for me in the last couple of months - I have had a least one moderate to severe hypoglycemic reaction ever since the driving incident in April. Talk about adding guilt onto guilt - however, through my faith, fellowship of Christians and diabetic friends I am persevering and hope to be able to share much more with you in the upcoming months..
For the past three months - ever since I had the really severe hypoglycemic episode while driving I have had a hard time with my mental stability. Every moderate and severe hypoglycemic reaction that I have affects me quite severely in the mental category. A lot of it is blame - what could I have done different, why didn't I feel any symptoms, and how come I have to have this stupid disease to begin with!.! None of which I change anyway...
It also seems peculiar to me that after 25 years of having diabetes I still wrestle with the acceptance of this disease and everything that I have to do to take care of it.. I always just shoved it aside until last month when I just couldn't take the depression anymore. At that time I went to see my family doctor who put me on a small dosage of Prozac and told me to try it and to come back in a month and see if it was working for me to help me feel better.. I went back a month later and it seemed to be helping some, but I also told him I would like to try and meet with a counselor to hopefully resolve some of my unresolved issues.. I had my first appointment with the counselor yesterday and we seemed to get the starting point issues figured out and I will see her again in about 10 days... I have always figured I was more of a failure for feeling lost, sad, depressed, and angry. I should just be able to deal with it and go on, right? Not so - as I was very close to literally throwing the towel in!! However, in the last couple of months I have found some very supportive friends over the internet and my family is very supportive of me and always willing to help me. I know I am not alone as I have found out from Scott through his blog - he voices a lot of the same thoughts and feelings that I feel concerning diabetes.
When we don't feel good about ourselves we quite obviously do not take very good of ourselves!! This I have found to be so true for me in the last couple of months - I have had a least one moderate to severe hypoglycemic reaction ever since the driving incident in April. Talk about adding guilt onto guilt - however, through my faith, fellowship of Christians and diabetic friends I am persevering and hope to be able to share much more with you in the upcoming months..
posted by Dianne Kracht @ 12:55 PM
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